Hey guys, it have been so long since i update my blog. Just felt like pouring out all my emotional feelings cause no one will understand how i feel and just what they need to do to help me or just to make me feel better. For those who tried to cheer me up and show me concern, thanks alot. I really appreciate it. So basically, aside from pouring my emotional feelings out i felt that i need to update my blog a little. Well, for today, i just felt that i have to relay how girls feel to those boys who do not understand girls well. Actually, girls ain't that difficult to understand. All they need is the care from you. Let me talk a little about some of the turn offs.

1.Never give your partner false hope.
Okay, what i meant by false hope is that you do not tell someone that you are going to do a certain thing, but do it otherwise. For example, NEVER and i mean NEVER tell her how much you love or care for her when on the other hand, as she tried to tell you things yet you can't be bothered, so on and forth. This only makes her confuse in knowing what exactly you want. Like do you still want her or you don't? It is like doing different actions and changes how you feel about her from time to time. So whats the best thing you should do? If you intend to keep her with you, than well, you shouldn't act like you don't bother and like you don't give two shits about it. Instead, you should tell her how you really feel and if you really love her, i am sure the only right thing to do is to stay by her side and let her know how much you can't live without her. But for some of you, i know you guys do not bother letting your pride down. So who's hurting? I would say both! For guys, you will be heartbroken or maybe be happy since you can do whatever you guys want. Just like in those webpages where they show how guys, after a breakup, they go have fun but end up crying due to regrets. As for girls, we cry first before knowing we should move on.
As for me, i have no idea how much i mean to the guy whom meant the world to me. Yes, i did felt he changed. Everyone persuade me to give up. And yes, i should. Since he chose to walk away, which already meant he decided to give everything up and walk out of my life right? I don't deny i don't miss those moments i spent with him. Everything seems perfect. We had our happy times. But sometimes it might be fate that we end up not being together. What i have been thinking of all day long is something i just cannot understand. I just don't understand why i get the confused feeling of not being able to know whether i am still wanted or not. I mean if someone intend not to be back with you, than just leave them alone right? Why give them false hope by hugging them or telling them how much you love them? Cause only the one who is receiving this kind of treatment will understand this kind of confused feeling whereby it brought great sufferings.

2. Never leave her alone, especially when she's upset.
Honestly, guys who heartlessly walked about when a girl is upset are the worst guys. I mean do you guys have the heart to walk away when she is crying or to leave her alone when she is unwell? When a girl is upset, no matter how many times she pushes you away, never leave her! Instead, pull her closer to you and hug her tight. Telling her that you are with her and comfort her along the way. It isn't something very difficult right?

For me, i do not even know what to do. Maybe it is better this way? I don't know. I have no idea too. Haha.. Just wish him all the very best in everything he do(: Don't worry, perhaps one day i'll get over you. But at the moment, i guess.. just keep myself busy so that i don't have to think about you. Haha.. Maybe i ain't someone that can make you happy, but its okay right? There is always someone else who can do a better job than me. No matter what you do, just be happy. Thats all i ask for. Maybe i was never so attached to someone before thats why for now, maybe i just need some time. But it will be alright, although i know many people have tell me not to think so much or just give up. But i just really have no idea what i should do. Maybe when you're able to move on, maybe that's when i will move on too. Honestly, i just don't seems to trust guys or even want to get involve in any form of relationship at all. Just don't have this kind of mindset. Perhaps when i start schooling or when i shift to another house, i will start getting new friends. Don't want to think so much either, might just end up with a depression or something. I know i am worrying those who concern about me, whenever i become like this. I really appreciate all your care and concern, i will be alright. No worries!

3. Never act like you know or understand her when you don't.
Lastly, never act like you know what she thinks or tries to understand her. Cause, girls ain't that easy to understand. Some girls do not like to say how they feel. They prefer keeping it to themselves. Which is why, this sort of girls requires more patient. And if you don't, don't go for them. Before getting with someone, always take a step closer to understand their character and personality before anything. But never mess with anyone. Never treat them like a toy. Always be clear about everything to your partner, confusing will only cause more hurt and sufferings to both.
Well, i guess the only difference is there will not be someone telling you they love you, miss you, etc.. No more of that. So usually, this is the part where people have to get used to. For those who want to try on a relationship, goodluck! Think through about everything before getting involved in one. It's easy to start one but difficult to overcome the endings. Give it some time, be it start or end.
I always tell myself, if they really care or love you they will returned. If it is yours, it will be. If it is not, than there won't be fate. Coming to this point, i really do not know what fate is. I do not have a single clue. To me, it became something that becomes stupid.

Right now, i am only wishing i can sleep easily every night and not wake up till i have something to do. Because i really do not want to wake up suddenly and no matter how much i force myself back to sleep, it just don't work. At this point, i really do not want to think much. My bestfriend had been telling me," After one week, he might just get a new gf. Lets just see." Whatever happens, its a choice isn't so? If someone decide to choose something new and if that makes him/her happy, than i guess.. just accept the fact? Haha!

Before signing off, it is 23 days to my birthday! Those who started planning something for me, thanks alot! I will enjoy myself on that day, appreciate everything you guys is gonna do for me. For those who ask what to get me or what i want, my answer would just be," What you think is best for me." I will leave you guys to decide what to get for me. Wouldn't want to ask or expect for something. Some have already thought of what to buy or what to do, just do whatever to give me a surprise okay? I don't want to know.

Signing off (; Goodnight guys!